I will officially never walk the halls of Villa Rica High school as a student again.

That’s a sentence I thought that I would be saying with joy and satisfaction. In normal circumstances, I would be saying it with the satisfaction that I finally made it and my hard work has paid off. It would bring me joy because I have finalized a chapter in my life and would be moving on to experience the next stage.

I find myself feeling a mountain of emotions when I say that sentence and quite honestly it is hard to put into words. I think the best word to describe how I feel is disappointment even though it’s deeper than that. It’s like you do something your entire life expecting a certain outcome and it is all of a sudden taken away.

Senior year and all the festivities always just felt like they were a given. It wasn’t something I had to wonder if I was going to get. So when it was taken away from me because of the COVID-19 outbreak, it did not even feel real.

I am a very optimistic person, so at first, I was still hopeful that our senior year was not going to be taken away in its entirety. As things got worse, a two-week quarantine turned into a month, and then six weeks, and now two months.I still tried to keep hope that things were going to eventually turn out in our favor but we still find ourselves in a place of uncertainty.

Honestly, I’ve accepted the fact that I will never get the senior year that I worked so hard for. I’ve accepted that I am going to be a dark part of history that people look back on. I’ve accepted that this chapter in my life will never get the proper closure. I’ve accepted this because there is not anything I can do to change it and life must go on.

I know God has a plan for me. I could choose to stay in the saddened state I was in for so long or I could take this as a lesson. I learned to appreciate everything in life because you never know when it will be taken away from you. I also learned to never feel entitled to anything (even if you are) because life always has a way of humbling you.

If I would’ve known that my high school career would end this way I would have cherished the moments I had with my classmates way more. Moving forward in life, I am going to appreciate the small things, such as being able to see my friends and just going outside, way more. While it does hurt to go through this, I am grateful for the lesson.

I have already lost my summer semester of college and now the fall is in question as well because people are not staying home.

If you are reading this, and you have not been taking this quarantine seriously, I urge you to please start now. People have already experienced so much loss. Try to step outside of yourself and think of others who have lost their loved ones, their jobs, and things they have worked so hard for. We can overcome this, but we have to do it together. Please stay home.